Although I do not care for football, nor do I have any idea what teams are playing. I don't even like the commercials that much. But, being an American citizen, I feel obliged to observe this cult holiday because football is an important religion as any in my town. So how did I decide to acknowledge the Superbowl? With super-bowls of food of course!
For breakfast: a massive combo of Kashi flakes, puffs, Bear Naked granola, and a banana, topped with milk later. It was the first breakfast in a long time that actually kept me feeling full.
Lately I've been feeling really down, and my eating disorder thoughts have been louder then they have been in a while. I'm trying to identify why and also am putting in an effort to consciously combat those thoughts with positive self talk. The truth is, I love it when I'm in a healthy mindset, it makes me so much happier! And even though I may not be comfortable in my body right now, it is important that I recognize that I am so much healthier after I've gained weight.
My goal for this week? Everyday, no matter how shitty I feel, how fake the words taste on my tongue, I will look in the mirror and tell myself that I am beautiful. Fake it til you make it(:
Someday, I will really believe in my own beauty. Someday, I will believe in myself. I have the hope that I can make it to a mindset where my goals become truths.
My life isn't a Superbowl game, because I do not label my experiences as wins or losses.
I do, however, look at how I've played the game.